Creative Mind

Save River, Odisha

2011-08-28T21:40:00.000+05:30

A short Life

2010-05-03T10:33:00.003+05:30

Earth Madam,
Like everyone else,
Will soon leave earth
And what will be left behind
Are the times she made others smile
Helped someone with their lives
I am not a saint
I am not Osama either
Only a good Samaritan
or may be Ange, (pronounced as ओंश )
Like one had referred and many preferred :)

Life is a funny thing. It gives you people to teach and learn from, that you can love and fight with. Anyhow, it still is brief. Try to spend each moment with love, compassion, smiles and forgiveness.

In Silence, Love is! God is!

2008-11-20T00:02:00.003+05:30

In silence,
Love is.

Where,
Are you?

I am a lover,
Poor and defeated!

Begging
Love.
Mercy.

God!

Why did You,
Leave,
Me?

Bad,
I am.

Thank
You.

Love,
For You,
And blessings too.

They said,
Its a b'ful name.
Is it?

And a smile,
from you.
The most!

A touch,
Of Love.
Of Miracle.
Of bliss.

Not me,
Friend.

Luck.
Love.
You.

I
Have not.

To,
God!

Love,
Me.

In memoir of someone I loved most,
God!

Smile, for me..

2008-10-15T01:10:00.000+05:30

A 2, 3 4-5.. months back, I thought how badly I miss a frend! Frantically Ange writes a mail to every of her friend.

I am somone who would not want to keep in wait for somthing or Some one to make her happy promise her of a land of all her fairy wonders.

She stopped cos she understood,
frends are busy too.
To Scale dreams of their own
Work to make 'em come true :)

She did understand
Happiness lies
Not in promises nor men
'neath her heart
that inside doth cries
cry till the corner of my smile ache
Ache until I know wher doth joy sleep
Sleep so I have reasons miles
to wake you up
Tell, how much I love thou
love so I can share thee
with ones that doth cry
Cry cos they were naive
Of the mysterious working of the world

World that look so high
Full of lie
Look open,
It is beautiful!

You are,
And the smile of mine
Take one
Give one :)

Let the world live once the tiny genuine smile from you. Let the lying world live one true joy. Will you not promise me of one? - Your world, D

Ange found her smiles back in the cackles from her lil neighbour as she filmed to her the images of cats of many coloured. May thy smile live on, Amen! ILMD

A debate

2008-08-29T00:47:00.005+05:30

Good morning everyone,

Yesterday, it was group discussion with the 2nd year DTDM batch students. And I had a wholesome experience. It wasn't something new, but as always different from all others too! My group consisted of 20 boys and three pretty looking cute girls. It was time for clash of the classes. Yes, it was! And I was voluminously speaking on myriad number of topics. From female education to communalism to the miserable state of Indian hockey to gender discriminations within a work place and so on.

The most difficult challenge was to accommodate with a small group of students that were adamant, arrogant, angry, abusive and under informed + a wrong attitude too :( I did all my best to give them the right information, think in terms of progress and higher goals of the nation, life in person, unity, equality, democracy but no success to the extent yet.

The group was against women's sexual freedom, financial freedom and openly voiced support to communal riots citing the great example to the recent incidents in Kandhamal. The fear of losing dominance, sense of insecurity, threat to their work & professional lives was clearly visible. And I am reminded of the exciting debate on 'The Lounge' probing if it's getting tougher for men? All of us would agree, the T.V series was regulated and arguments well channelled in order to avoid the necessary inconveniences of the clash of ideas. But I am in a class and there are no one to regulate but our own individual conscience. It gave an insight too to the actuality of Indian patriarchical minds, beliefs and rage. I will take both topics, in sequence.

Not very surprisingly, a part of the boys expressed their demand for their lost rights, by challenging feminine higher education. Few of them believed that, highly educated women tend to be more career oriented and hence often neglect family, which according to the social norms is wrong and should and must be discouraged. I understand how hard it is to become a Mom, for most men to fit in well enough into the role! It's a challenge women had been happily shouldering all this time. Wasn't THAT bold?

On the other hand women are giving in their financial, personal and sexual rights in exchange for a higher position in some corporate offices. They are smart and intelligent and are aware well enough, what sells where best! But in the process, they may lose peace, health and eventually their free and happier life too. It looks difficult. But for some it's a price which they would willingly pay in order to gain a bit extra freedom. But let me make things bit more clear again. Not all women sell sex in exchange of a better opportunity (some of them do to secure them a better career and few others are just falling into traps), but let alone I would say, only few unintelligent ones do and that too, alone to some of the most incompetent bosses, both of which are not going to stick around in the long run of organisational prosperity. We also have some very talented men and women working hard and winning at the same time, and yes, not at the cost of sex but true potential, intelligence and hard work too. Our globalised society believes in progress and progress alone, and chooses to weigh pure talent than any bias or discrimination. Cheers all! For we are all here, living in a free & opportunistic world.

After years of struggle, women are securing themselves, political, economic and to some extent sexual freedom too. Why cannot most of us accept this? You would, once you start viewing your female peers not as a mere woman, the usual conceptions carrying the connotations like the embodiment of purity, beauty and kindness but rather as actual human beings. Humane enough to be free in all spheres from all bondage, access equal opportunities, while sustaining life in a biasfree progressive world. Everyone has the right to be free, and access to equal opportunities and thereby, lead and destine a happy and free life for themselves.

In a small, quiet, peaceful state like Orissa, communal riots, terrorist and naxalite activities are rare and meagre in numbers and occurances, but one single instance is enough to shake the entire socio-political scenery. State communal party activities are also on the rise. Hartals, bandhs and strikes are becoming more frequent. But I can ensure, a major part of us still appreciate of us being a peace loving people and successfully choose not to align or relate ourselves to any of these anti-secularist secessionist activities and groupings. Again, I would want to assert, the same does not and would never categorise any of us as anti religious!

All of us must understand and agree that communalism and religion are two different fields, while one is destructive, the other, constructive. And I would again want to confirm, religion unites us while communalism disunites. The two must never be confused with one another. Religion is not equal to communalism. And religion is also not equal to science either. While religion and science are the two sides of the same coin, communalism becomes the colourless moisture that corrodes the coin.

Communalism results from the practicability of a communal ideology. To quote Bipin Chandra, ‘Communalism is an ideology based on the belief that the Indian society is divided into religious communities, whose economic, political, social and cultural interests diverge and are even hostile to each other because of their religious differences. As an ideology it is akin to racialism, anti-semitism and fascism and is considered as the Indian form of fascism. The basic thrust of communalism is the spread of communal ideas and modes of thought.’ It IS a religion of different kind, that preaches bloodshed and power acquisition at the cost of the innocent lives of a million and is basically designed to feed in the selfish motives of a small group of people, we recommend addressing as the fundamentalists! After all, Marx was justified enough to quote, ‘Religion is the opium of the masses!’ True!

Similarly, science and religion operate excellently in their own separate fields and must not be confused as one for the other. Science alone cannot guarantee development and neither can religion, single handedly. Each needs the other to fill in their lacunae and reach a common goal called development.

The question whether Science believes in God is wrong and cannot be answered in a mere yes and no. Science has proven the existence of the spirits though but must not do anything that challenges mass belief system in miracles, supernatural and supranatural existence. If science forms the body, religion becomes the soul. All of us must understand here clearly, that One is incomplete without the other or rather is dead and devoid of any life and hence, meaning. Atheists are disbelievers in God, not in religion and still uphold a certain unique belief of their own. Now we cannot regard all atheists as scientists. Can we? And their unique belief is their religion.

Science may not believe in God, but scientists do, because they are humane enough to align themselves to a particular set of belief, faith. Human beings are not dead robots, but walking, talking, merry making individuals too and would always seek faith in order for a happier, blissful, integrative and a holistic sustenance of their lives.

Best wishes, Dharitri

With my lovely cats

2008-08-27T01:16:00.001+05:30

Make a Smilebox slideshow

Soul-mate

2008-07-19T21:17:00.001+05:30

I hate watching you walk alone.
I hate you dying from the want of human love
I hate saying how I hate you

You are someone
I first explored love with
With you I touched
Love ' s first smiles
And a feeling elusive and breathtaking

You are the only one I have desired desply
The one I imagined all my dreams with
The soul that I would mate with

I hate it when the crowd engulfs
Your twilight presence so profound
I hate it when I remember
Of the many times you confessed of being lsitless & lost
barren of love and starving of care
I hate it when you are crying for the humane touch
A kiss and a caress to rejuvenate your wounded soul

I think of those teary nights
And the days that were dark, dreary and guiltsome
Alone and heart wrecked I would wander for the humane care
And You.
Wanting you to love make
With a timid, uncared, abandoned girl
Hold her close and tell her
That ' I Love you '

My Everything

2008-07-19T01:22:00.002+05:30

I am proud of all the poems that I ever wrote. They sometimes appear to me, foolish, silly and stupid, may not be too furnished for a blog post. I am yet to distinguish if I will make a successful writer or poet. Your poetess! I still am enrapt with the genuine selfless love of yours (Why?) that You once promised me of. But I have not stopped writing, then of course. I met you and have successfully portrayed your presence in my life through my lame poems. I am proud still. That I am writing, that I did taste love once. That I do love still to endure and yearn for true love. With every song playing in my heart, I am struggling hard to cry. So I too will have a happy day.

I could not make upto my class today, because of the rain ( that I have loved so much to have it ruin my presentation, not really ) and a virus in my PC and an uncaring brother.

This morning when I opened my horoscopes, they sharply read, it is Your day. ' Someone will be very annoying to you. But then tolerate, because it IS their special day ' and the day before, ' A friend is gonna open up to you today and you gonna be very good friends ' That night I heard you crying on the phone and listened to your pretences, believing your lies, just as I always do.

We are very good friends? I always was and I wanted to be your very best long time friend. You wanted me to love you. I was being submissive, because I did not want to lose the friend in You. May be, Robert did understand the fact well and better enough. A matured old man that he is. I am proud of a man like that and would want a similar soulmate with the smiles of you and a childlike OMG from Sree, and sensual touches from Alexis, literateur Rajat. Oh hell, what do I really want and where am I? God, take me in before I am lost into the oblivions again.

I wish I could write as beautiful as U my beautiful friend. That you are in love. I can smell it too, smell that something is brewing. Where and who is the lady, to love and enchant your dreams?

And oh, my dear Miss Aditi, and the pretty cool song, kabhi kabhi aditi. Are you not the blessed one, cute gal. A lovely Deborah, my beautiful daisy queen, bold and wisest among all, loved and lost and yet winning too. And one long time old friend, Sigrid to have been with me for the longest time, through the thicks and the thins.

Should I not tell you, how I love the morning hours that encourage me to write, write more and write beautiful and write wise. So, I can have some good posts for you, dear friend Ajaya.

And the wonderful class that I thought loves me, is aptly being abusive of this innocent little woman. The cheerful colleagues that exploits her with friendly smiles and carefree laughters. Poor emotionally unstable D. Sympathies? No!

God, the greatest strength and the truth of all. I love and He loves too. To Him, I owe my life, my love and my everything. You are my everything!

The google reader and writer me : )

2008-06-24T08:59:00.002+05:30

I am a good blogger but may not be a good writer, though I desire to be one. I have joined ‘creativity’ and ‘creative writing’ and ‘connoisseur in English’ communities, to stimulate my creative soul and improve my writing. In absence of ample access to books, I am resorting to more of online reading. The Google reader is one excellent source, where you can choose what and how long you want to read. You can subscribe to many sites by browsing across as according to your hobbies and interests. Simply surf the accessories from Google or follow the link – www.reader.google.com Make use of your existing gmail id if you already own one or else ( the best part ) use your own email id to activate your google reader, though the same will automatically save a gmail account for you. I have subscribed to my favorite news, entertainment and information channels, to update me constantly with changes in world and domestic politics through ‘The Hindu’ ‘BBC’ ‘Reuters’, the nature news from ‘national geography’, English language learning from ‘teaching English’ ‘urban dictionary’ ‘word of the day’ ‘reader’s phrase of the week’, everyday tips from ‘dumb little men’ ‘the list universe’ ‘freelance folder’ ‘Ian’s messy desk’ ‘urban monk’ comic from ‘jumbo joke and humor of the day’ ‘calvin and hobbes’ and to help online reading from ‘thinkers’ ‘all men are liars’ ‘marginal revolution’ and so on. The list is extensive. The writer’s block suggests few great tips like, setting a separate and fixed time and place for everyday writing, and encourages writing no matter how pathetic, poor, unpolished it looks. With time, it gets beautified! I do not have neither the time nor a fixed place but I am working on whatever assets and opportunities I am offered with. Happy day and have a happy writing! Smiles D

A day to start with

2008-06-24T08:57:00.002+05:30

Morning starts with people, there ain’t any pious thoughts or spiritual exercises to kick start my day. So it began with a call to Sam, wandering for the answers to his three desperate missed calls last night. He’s got a girlfriend and an ever expanding friend list, what is that he wants now? There did go the call, ‘Hullo’!!! Sam and his whole lotta problems ! ! !His girlfriend, her attitude, I hate arguments, good past, regrets, quitting job, you never listened to me, problems and problems in life – I have begun counseling as a help for ‘my’ depressed souls – make a kind registration, please. One more possibility for my myriad talents! Time for my pill - Someone who can switch on my morning. Search, search, search – Sree!!! Then an elusive and overt ‘Hulloooo Sree’ accompanied by a big wide smile to spread everywhere and the usual yet unusually cute ‘Oh my God!’ Sree. Afternoon was devoted to text messaging, followed by a short nap which turned into a long sleep. ‘I met Mom who was being very nice and so kind and happily sensed the gentleness in her voice, one diwali night and a mail from my dearest R, as always with the sweetest words and apologies requesting me take him in at orkut.’ But, not a thing for my disturbed soul! Evening, I played with my kittens, worrying about my exam. I have lost one whole day, doing nothing, not even a self realization. Wait, but the day is not over yet. I am waiting for an online chat and I seem to be having a good time. He is happy now and I am off my worries too and can get back to work now, I hope so.. Oh goodness, the exams are waiting too : )

In life, we experience good and bad alike, only to take in good and learn from the bad and not let someone ruin your life. ‘Resolve to make each day the very best and do not let anyone get in your way. If they do, step on them!’

Love and Be Loved!

2008-05-22T08:00:00.005+05:30

You are my only Angel,
That doth love me.
Love me more,
when no one doth love .

Love me like a friend,
And love like Angel from heaven.
Thou art me blessing.
My Everything.

My friend,
I do treasure you.
And your Love.
And every small thing that you do.

May the Good Lord Protect you,
Be with you.
In everywhere that You are.
Love with whoever you are.

Cos that will be a glimpse,
Of the Love that I do save for thee.
And the Happiness to live inside,
Blessed to be for all eternity.

Thank you for being with me,
In Good and in bad!
To have held me in your arms,
In happy and in sad.

Wishing you joyous times,
And a smile that shines.
Now and tomorrow,
And for every tearful day of mine.

Tell me, Life is beautiful.
Life is love,
Love that cometh from thee
Is the love of God.

Love is God
With someone Godlike you.
Should be the only love
That I knew.

Love that He doth save.
For me and for you.
For our today,
And the days thereafter.

Love always
Love for all eternity.
Love till we have love all around
Love till our breath does end!

Love with all your heart,
And love with every breath.
Beautifying my life,
And those that lay around!

With every touch from thee.
Shall liven my each day.
To believe in Love
And to believe in God!

New blog on the block

2008-05-18T08:51:00.004+05:30

Dear World,

“If writers stopped writing about what happened to them, then there would be a lot of empty pages!” Hi! That’s one reason why the third blog has to come to scene!! Surfing the Blogspot, I tripped over several interesting blogs, those which spoke about short stories, happenings of a day-to-day and for the writers themselves!! This was magnificent! It means I don’t have to burden my PC with my thoughts at the MS Word and that I have a space to scream, shout, share stumble and whisper, giggle and laugh out loud, muse and sing! (Smile) and yes, yes no paper pen work! Except for the paintings, I would, if it’s not a psp or smooth draw! (Smile again) Here there will not be any poem or a professional article! For the creative stuffs, www.creativmnd.blogspot.com would be still working and for the professional articulates and write ups, a 4th one is in making! Meanwhile, I am, that I am working on few trivial articles, most of them still incomplete, unready for a post! But, here will be no space for professionalism, just me and my passions and the myriad ways and the reasons behind, which I have resorted, to self evolve! Anything and every other thing, that is noteworthy, shall have a post here! I shall post in as much as my patience, time, space and capacities would allow! Thence, this would be, my home, my Abode! 3 of my most favoured places! Wherever travels may take me, the arms of my love and my passions one of which is Writing of course! And apart from writing, are music, art, blogging and sleep (smile) I hope you are enjoying yourself at the privileged abode of mine.

Love always

Dharitri

Take me away..

2008-04-27T18:09:00.003+05:30

Take me away..

James Blunt - You'...

Come for me,
And Take me away ..
Away to a land far off ..
To a place that is forever yours,
To the place that you would want to be with!

I don't care where the place be..
As long as I know,
It's You that I am walking with !
You, that holds my hands..
You, with thy strongest arms,
To carry my heart ..
that's too fraile and sick!

Thence, softly would we tread
Holding hand in hand,
And step by Step,
Leading on to life..
Life so unknown, mysterious and unsure!
Every step that you would take,
Is the beauty that would fill my world..
World that hath come from thou,
World, that's bright with love and Life!

I know that I have not a fear to shake me..
For I am with a man,
That's so a blessing in kind !
With Love Genuine, strong and Pure,
And gentle sweetness to bind!

My Angel,
That You are,
from the Heavens,
That You Come from!

Do come for me,
And take me away,
Away with You alone.
Away, that's far enough!
To a Place that's forever yours
To the place that you'ld want to be with!
For I am in wait
All in wait for You Alone!

There would not be a thing that I would wish for,
On this earth so barren of love and too insecure..
But just you,
You, My love
A Love that doth warm,
Care to Feel all my life through!
Tenderness to caress my wounded soul,
Moments to fill in my memories good and ol'

Just You!
To Your sweetest embraces to warm,
And enchanting kisses to live upon.
Fill me with Love and Life,
So I hath the Blessings of the worlds thereon..

Come for me..
And Take me away,
Away to a land far off !
To a place that's forever yours,
To the place that you'd want to be with!

Come and Live with me..
Live me, Love me !

Yours 4ever Raine

Thank You, Love :)

2008-03-30T11:09:00.008+05:30

Thank You, Love

All this time in a while
I had no love in my heart
and not a happy to smile

And then one morning
when the sun was shining gay
thence You came into my life
turning everything red that once was gray

I thank you my Angel.
for all the love and joy that you bring me
I am happy and hoping
I am wishful and have many dreams to see

I have smiles to share
and joyful music to sing
that I have someone who loves to care
and smile.. when it's raining!

A walk down the marketplace
or may be the sounds from the oceans
treading aside the rolling waves
with love in our hearts, and Blessings from the Heavens

The ice-creams that we would share
and the oranges that you would save for me
with You alone, my love
I would want to feel and see!

Please stay with me
Cos I will be needing you
to fill my lonely life
With Joy and love from YOU!

I Love You,
Missing You much
And of course Most Important
Thank You for your Wonderful time
Love Rain

Let Us Walk

2008-02-13T03:09:00.002+05:30

Let Us Walk..

Let us walk,
Walk onto this barren path
Walk in, to colour it with love,
Love, that has you and me.

Walk in, hand in hand.
Amidst the darker woods.
Let the light show us the way,
Light from the love,
Love that evolves from us.

Let us walk.
Walk through the cold weather,
Cold, that cometh from the world around,
Let you and I offer the warmth.
Warmth from the love that we share.

Let us walk in.
Step by step,
Breaking the silence from eternity.
With whispering from love,
Love and laughter,
And Eternal joy divine.

Let us walk in,
Walk in, with hand in hand
With Whispers and elation.
Joy and Love in our hearts.
Let us walk..

Exams Are Fun

2007-12-22T00:04:00.001+05:30

Exams are Fun !!

On Monday the 10,
Assembled we again,
As the clock struck one,
The test begun!!

We were laid with the questionnaire,
Which only added to a little more despair.
Each one kept scratching his head,
Gaping at faces that were already dead !!

Half hour past the test,
A desperate cell phone yells for rest.
As the Peon rushed to grab the yelling phone,
The sweetest voice tone tricked a yawn.
With despair he returns,
Only to rush again with furious warns !!

I knew it was one of us enticing the frigid phone,
To save us some time while the peon is gone !!
While the phone sang us notorious melody,
Buying us enough time to get steady !!

The phone continued the Seduction,
While the desperate lover failed his vision.
And thence we did write our test,
Wishing each one all the best !!
Amidst the music of laughter and a wink,
No matter how bad the questions did stink,
At the end of it they did leave us happy and all pink,
Pushing all our worries to a brink.

With happy Adios we bade farewell,
Only to meet again at the next test on twelve.

Happy because finally they were done.
So I can say, Exams are fun !! :)

Passage Of Time

2007-12-21T23:59:00.002+05:30

The Passage Of Time..

The Passage Of Time..
That shall carry me through,
And you !
With its wavering creeps,
And smiles untrue !
May I wait?
And Would You ??

The Passage of time,
Knows no roads divine !
Just this belief
this Life is all mine.
That soul I own,
that I shall offer thine !!

The Passage of Time,
Shall bind me together,
In thy moistened lips Divine !
A minute shall be one Life,
One whole that’s all mine !!
The one I shall Live 'neath You..
amidst your wet lies silevrine.

The Passage of time.
You shall Know,
And So shall I !
That we loved once,
And How We Endure Hate !!

The passage of Time,
That giveth us all !
One sweet Life,
and Love to Fall !
The passage of time
Will give us life
Happy to You
and save me the Dull !!

the Passage of time
Shall Offer us moreThis..
and a little that we wish for

And the passage of Time
Shall leave us all..

Loved One

2007-12-18T08:51:00.001+05:30

To my Loved One

To my beloved one,
That I am writing.
To the one who has believed me!
Have you been loving me..

Ever Since I was here,
With not a Face on mine!
The darkness I wrote within.
Did carve my world therein,
The pain that I crave for,
The hate that I savour,
Were the sole life of my death..
This I breathe each day.

Until You, My Love..
Did decide to draw.
A happy smile,
Coloured with those of yours !
Twinkling eyes,
Filled by the stars in yours !
And the faceless self of mine shapes..

All this time,
I have not done any,
To tell you How much I Love..
You and I care for !
How often I think and pray for years,
For that Godlike self of yours.

May you live on..
And keep spreading the smile and Love.
Thank you for being mine.
In this world that is so rough.

Angel that you bring me Joy,
May the same embrace thee!
May all the Gods save’
The world’s Blessings and love for you.

One Grudge

2007-12-18T08:32:00.001+05:30

One Grudge

There once was a Guy
That I fell for
He wrote “I love you” s
And I promised him more

I loved with all
I never knew I would
He smiled back, and I,
Did touch all heavens that I could!

Thence I wrote,
Many poems of love!
Telling him how I need,
And his wilderness that drove.

With every hour of my day
I shall have him on my face
Thanking him for his Love
And for keeping me gay!

At night we would talk
And smile through each others’
Things were simply beautiful
With not many to bother!

Till one day
The guy got bored
With an evil grin,
On my dreams he overrode.

“How I hate you more”
Said his last note!
“That I ever love you,
Is one lie that I wrote”

He cursed on my infidelity
And stabbed on my person,
Never realizing
The same that existed in his own

I looked at me
And I did see me in ruin
With a bloody face on my head
And hurt to let in

My angel did pick me up
A brother and a friend!
Telling me the angel that I am
The only one that is Godsend!

I love life
Life likes moving
There is happiness and love
And more that I bring

Now I am writing
Poems of love and pain
Of smiles that are happy
And an aching heart that does wane

The only wish that I make
“That I would have never known you among men”
But then I would have never known me
And the pain that does remain!

The man that hurt so many,
With only lies and deception to give
Will never see peace nor no harmony,
This I must believe!

Now I am a better human
Only you the one that looks bad
Pray I shall for you to God
Along with sins some mercy to add

With God do transcend,
My only thoughts divine.
Now I am happy and content.
Though I am not on cloud nine!

Amidst much love and care
All grudges did I drain.
Now I have God,
So I have much peace hope and joy to reign

You.. I Love.

2007-12-02T14:29:00.001+05:30

You.. I Love

I am in Love..
In Love..
I love the way it goes on..
And the way it turns me on..
the way it likes spreading over hours on for long..
I like it anyway..
Love every bit of it.
And the Images of You..
Everywhere that My heart goes.
You flyby me..
You Live and Die 'neath me..
just as I have lived and Died next to You..
Your Crumpled Smiles..
And an Imaginary LOVe..
That looked almost so real.
I Love You..
My Melancholous Tranquility.
The piece Of Peace ..
And a piece Of Me..
That so accentuates..
with a Piece from You.
Which is Mine.
Which is all mine.
Which owns me.
In its Womb of Fulfillment.
And More..
I Love You..
BEing Alone.
Cos Thats the Only heaven Where I find You.
And I reach you.
YOU..
I Love.
You are my favorite.. Love

Signed With Love
Kisses ;)

Fortune-Ate

2007-11-15T21:06:00.000+05:30

Fortune-At(e)??

I shall consider me fortunate.

I never had no great friends to stick up around with me all the time, all my life.

I had no pure selfless love as a part of my existing survival.

I shall call me fortunate for the many times I met despair.

I recall the times when I earned more of jealousy and had more envy served on my plates alongside praises.

This was how my life more or less was.

I shall consider me fortunate for the many blank years whence I did nothing.

Not even no realisation.

I am fortunate for being so incapable of feeding myself.

I still rely on my birth parents for everything.

But I hope to be free.

Free someday and then everyday from thereon.

I consider me fortunate for I know I am God's favourite.

I know it !!

Beyond this no fortune I seek that has the impotent capacity of making my fortune.

My God was next to me, even before I felt the need of Him.

He was there I know,
every time I was lost and every time I rendered to a moistening tear.

May Thee live on.. For Eternity. AMEN !!

Free Spirits

2007-11-15T20:48:00.001+05:30

Free Spirits

We are free souls… serving the life of bondage, trapped in the prison cells of the perishable body. We look for every source that will set us free or will promise us the freedom of our eternal spirits. The femininity of our body don't stop the determination or the thinking even fails to subordinate our greatest desires and the hopes therein. Whether it is you, a man or me a woman, we constantly search for a free soul. A way that will merge the souls of ours with the Supreme one. In a way All of us do seek salvation in a way or another. The spirits continue to be restless. It is not unusual that we often seek for our self owned selves in those many endeavours of ours or even those many people that we mistakenly believe belong to us !! In the reflection of the successes and failures, in the Smiles and tears of our beloved ones we see our very own images. We often confirm our own identities. It looks puzzling. All the time we live in a belief we had been living for others while at the end of the day we see ourselves searching for our very own images for the sake of self assertion and our own identities. At the end of it, We know, all of us know even You and me very well do, that no gender no caste no religion shall identify the soul of ours. In the end we shall all be the Children of God. Our sole abode shalt be thee. We await your bliss. Though in our hearts we knew we deserveth not any. As we look back our past we see smiles envy jealousy and anger and the many commitment we fail to make up, the many times we choose to be untrue unfulfilling and unfaithful to our loved ones, the many unhappy events we lived through, your tears and those of mine, and those we did wipe. All will look so glorious. And at last we will be happy to have travelled long enough and we shall rejoice the long suffered tiredness of the Journey. And shall we be happy and contented about them? Let the Eternal blessings of God be as always with you me and with everyone.. help us reach the Destiny of all Times. Amen.

Temple Visit

2007-11-13T03:05:00.002+05:30

My Temple Visit

I am keeping so very confused these days. I barely am able to think straight. Instead I am deliberately letting the whims and fancies of other people to drive me away, with their scrupulous intentions of putting me down in every way possible, their desires in the long run to win over me finally seemed to be coming true. In short I am letting my people decide me my destiny, my actions and even my very next steps. Have I become this less of help? I am keeping confused these days, still unable to make what is happening to me. I keep looking for an answer so I liberate me from my endless miseries that crop from the ten sons that I am nourishing in my petty little head. Desperately I hope some angel will drag me outta this Hell.

So today, when mom asked me to assist her, for an evening walk down to the temple, my usual reaction has definitely had to be in negatives. But, something else happened. Thought lets give God a try. May be He shall help. So I did, even though I was pretty dressed well, after having bade my pretty neighbour goodbyes, for my sole duty all day and night which I sincerely was keeping committed to, Sleep! I decided and so I did change.

I had a very good experience earlier. About my visit to the temple! Then, it felt lot of peace relaxation and tranquility profound inside.

Though no great a Pagoda it was. Just a mere petty little worship place to fetch the daily religious requirements and duties of the localites around. And also provided with an 80 year young man as the priest that showed no signs of old pious age except a white beard that unfortunately sported his riping age, rather one that well preserves every other sign of a curious youth. This enchanting 80 years young man has profusely became the dictator of this tiny little abode of God. So it just looked to me God no longer rules the tiny humble place of worship but let this guardian angel do all the dictates wherein God seemed much grateful to have been granted a small room for have Him worshipped while having the honour of living aside this great honorary Young man.

This being the sole reason I abort my visits often. Everytime, it occurs to me less a visit to God more like a date with this man.

But anyways this evening it was different. So I was determined to see Him, God, after having been on an escapade, from Him, for long years. These are some of His creative ways of getting some stubborn folks like me to come and yield to His generous all powerful Will. So I got me dressed and ready to move. The diyas that I missed this Diwali, hopefully were a part of this visit. I always love the tender gentle steady lights of the Deepa. They look so pretty wherever and whosoever they are with. Its great feeling offering ‘em to the Gods and begging at the same time to fill in your life with similar lights and hope. So I had quite a quiet brief conversation with God, a lot of tranquil time and the regeneration of peace within. So I promised to see Him again, every evening when Thou shalt call upon me I shalt be with thee. To fetch You with the wandering lost helpless soul of mine. And to help us carefreely express our tender little cares and divine Love for each other. With this I bade Him adieu.

You and I at the Beautiful ..BEAutiful SeA Shore

2007-08-29T23:23:00.002+05:30

Aah I Am AlIVE !!

2007-08-28T01:35:00.001+05:30

Aah I am Alive.
HE is Alive.
She is Alive.
Everyone's Alive .. :-o
Aah THAts HOW life is!!
You gotta be there..
there ain't No escapee.
Live It.
Love It.
And Just KEep Moving.
Back Or Forth..
Life Goes on AnyWay.
:-)

Rain Love

2007-08-27T22:12:00.002+05:30

Rainha Loves RAin

RAin RAin Come Again.
And TAke ME..
To THAt WoNDerFUl HEAven..
Wher HAppiNEss Does REign..
With the Green Green gRAss that Crawls nEAth u feet..
And the CAdbury Chocolate colord Wet Soil..
So lets HAve Some very HAppy HAppy RAin.

So VEry VEry BEAutiful.

Like that Wee hours dREAm Of Mine.
I LOVEyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy So MUCh !!

Heavens Inside Me..

2007-05-04T13:53:00.001+05:30

Heavens Inside ME !!

I Have Lost..
Lost Faith.
Faith, That I had in me.
Faith, that others Had in me.
The Hurt
And Hateful feelings
Mount up Somewhere,
I know.
Inside of Me.
Choking me.
Strangling..
My Heart And My Soul.
My Thinking.
I Have to Do this
I Have to.
I Need to.
Cry.
Cry until I'm all dry of Pain.
Cry.
Cry till i could Cry No More.
Cry.
Cry Till I feel In ME,
The Heavens Again.

Dontcha Call up.
Or Try to Put A Stop.
Quit Doing So,
At My Endeavour So Humble.

My Phone is Dead By Now
I Choked Him To.
So I have No one..
To Answer My Annoyance..
While You Make meagre Trials
trying Hard..
To Strangle My Desperation to Death,
Thru A Miraculous Love Potion
I call Water !!

The Love and Care You Show,
I Appreciate.
But For Now,
My Friend..
Just For NOW,
You Need to Know..
That I need to Do this,
Do All the Crying,
Cry out Loud.
And cry My heart out.

Cry,
So I Gain a Faith so Unique from HIM.
Cry,
So NEW Hopes Are Instilled in ME.
Cry,
To feel Inside me, THE Heavens Again !!

Dead Life

2007-04-30T21:58:00.001+05:30

On This Rainy Eve..

Dead asleep i was,
With my eyes Shut so tight.
Behind those dArk doors,
I was trying to trace out,
The Footprints..
Hoping they would lead..
Me, Back again,
To those Happy Dreams Of my Past.

The tiny bits Of Chaos in the Nature..
Woke Me up,
Back To that realist Friend of Mine.
With Eyes Half empty
I was lying dead.
I heard the Roaring wind outside,
I heard the screeching trees outside,
They were all so chaotic.
What for?

They were readying for a Big celebration.
So Very Much Joyous of the return.
For the Big Drops From the Heaven,
Were Arriving.

I knew it !!
It was like another Rainy evening,
Usually a Feast,
For That Shrunken Soul of Mine,
So often dipped in Turmoils.
A Feast..
That my Dry tears await,
Wait, Long enough to Chomp upon !

But I saw...
I Had No Life in Me !
Life Enough to push Me to My pLayground
Where I usually Like Gulping Down,
Those Happy tears from the Heavens.

I Lied there
Like a Dead.
Listening to Those Big Drops,
Growling with Hunger.
Desperate To Feast upon,
The Earth So Dead Dry.
HAppily Satiating the Lifeless life Outside,
Thumping Hard,
Against the Earth So Short Of Tears
And I lied there..
Like A DEAd,
With Not A Life beneath my Soul.

May be I HAd the Lazy Fish Again,
Yawning Inside me,
Amidst the Ocean Of energy.
And I lied there
Like A dead.
As the sound Of the DAncing Drops,
Defeaned My Senses
I heArd a Sound
So Big, loud And Clear..
Of A tear
That Hit the ground
Or was tHAt..
Another Drop of Blood,
That was oozing out,
Out Of my heart, So badly wounded .

While HAppy Tears were breathing life,
Life into The dead outside.
I am Left,
Well ignored.
For i Had in Me..
A storm Far More Angry and Strong And chaotic.
Churning My half eaten emotions,
And slicing My tender lil Heart to Pieces.

Thoughts Of a Gentle Youth,
Were Gripping Hard to mY Heart.
Suckling all the Joy and Peace in ME,
And Leaving me..
All So Dead and Dry.

Rainha No More Had her Rain
On this another Rainy Evening
She was,
She was..
left So isolated and Undone.
And in Vain.
Yearning A lil More Of dEAth,
From Each Moment that Passed By.

Her once So called Arms Wide open,
With Which she Hugged those HAppy Tears from the Heaven,
Were all in ashes, by now.
For Within the Very SAme
She held, Once,
Her One-love.
Closest to her Bosom.
Nourishing EAch DAy,
It, With Love so Gentle And Genuine.

One dAy,
THe Love Decided to Move Away.
And so did the Arms.
To burn themselves Down.

And I lied there.
Half dead,
With Not a Life in me.

The Rainy evening Passed away
Without Me..
The HAppy tears BAde Adieu,
With No HAppy in ME.

And I lied there,
Half Dead..
With Not a Life in Me !

And I saw me searching in the dark,
Wandering for The HApPy-Me.
Trying to Trace away.
The footprints..
Of those Happy Dreams Ov My Past !!

And So I lied there,
Dead Still.
With No Life In me..
No Life iN Me.

Tears to mourn within..

2007-04-08T11:03:00.001+05:30

Tears To Mourn Within

I asked my tears to mourn within.
Learn.. to hide the sorrow.
But those were the tears.
Meant to run free.
Never know of hiding.

I asked 'em
"Stay at home.. "

Yet ..
They followd me..
Like the loyal guard.
Followed me..
Like the faithful guardian

Till...
I turned my back.
And I found 'em..
Looking up to me with hopes.
Wanting me to embrace 'em!!

And I did..
And So I did.

Vielen Dank

2007-04-03T17:57:00.001+05:30

Vielen Dank

The Day I meet You,
I sing A song..
No German but may be a Spanish one!!
Hoping that would make You smile,
And ignore my german of a vile.

Then I ask You, how You say Hullo!!
While You teach me a word or two,
I follow the Swaying swallow.
And Secretly I say to me..
Oh, what beautiful heaven on Earth is this!
With an angel friend beside me,
I walk down my solitary lane.

Friend You are Beautiful Gift.
I treaure You now...
And forever.

The Beautiful "I"

2007-03-31T17:22:00.001+05:30

The Beautiful "I"

Oh WaIt..
LemmE SAy.
LonLiNEss Is no Curse.
It is A Gift ..
For it is the Time that GOD thrusts into our Lives.
So We Sit Down.
So We talk To Him.
So We talk To us.
And we Know that We are no Criminals,
And that there always is ROOm For improvment..
And So we Know the Beautiful "I"

Sweet dreams, Sweets

2007-03-31T16:27:00.000+05:30

When You are filling Down,
When Your worries overshadow your dreams,
When the tears of desperation hover around.
Don't you ever lose Yourself,My Love..
Do you think of me then.

Clasped to your music So soft..
Wrapped up in your empty arms,
Caressing your Soul, so tired.
While I let all your cares spend the night with me..
So I Watch You sleep,
While you fly high.

Cuddled to those many enchanting Dreams.
So they be true in the morning to come..
Have a GOOD Sleep my dear.
Good Night! Sleep tight!

Remember Me?

2007-03-30T16:28:00.001+05:30

I Remember.. Do You??

It was our Kindergarten School
Where we first met.
You Remember??
I do.

It was fun,
Celebrating Togatherness at the Central High,
While You and I, togather we watched,
Other people Touch the Sky.
I Remember..
Do You??

I sought for You.
With My hands folded..
I asked God,
To Give me, You!
And I got You.
Our separate Intermediate Classes.
And Still...Still
Were those Warm Feelings that I had always preserved for You.
I Remember..
Do You???

Graduation.
I wasn't looking for You,
But then I found You.
So Overwhelmed I was.
With a relaxed look on my Face I looked up,
Wondering what wonders have YOU(God)!!
I was Happy ever Since.
I Remember,
Do You??

I addressed You Tzarina,
The Russian Queen.
My Beautiful Lady,
Never do You let go of your Dreams,
And those endless Hopes of Flying High.
For Life is Too BIG for a Small Despair!!

You stayed with me till So far.
Do You stay with me ,
For the rest of my Life hereafter.
I will Remember..
Will You??

While She held her Smiles I tried HolDin My TEArs ! ;-)

This Poem IS a dedication to A very Dear frend Of mine-Jharina
"I love You my Dear friend And I miss you..
MAy You Live the Happiest Life ever, AMEEN!! :)"

Runaway

2007-02-10T21:00:00.001+05:30

Runaway…

I just wanna runaway...
Far away from you..
Away from me.
So I seek me.
A place where I hide me,
A place where I hide my tears.
From a world which has been ungrateful...
A place where I seek solace, peace
From the many turmoils my heart’s been through.

I never hated so much the feeling
That I have now.
About meeting new people.
And the many faces they put up…
And the many games they play,
With emotions So fragile, of mine!

Oh,
Am I just so afraid of getting hurt?
Yes,
For the hurt had been so deep.

I just wanna runaway…
Hoping morrow I’ll be free
Free form all hurt,
And the many tears that make me cry,
And the many cares that take over my tender feelings so often.
And then I’ll be free from you..
And so I’ll be free form me.

With A Lil help from a greAt frend..RAjat Khanna
"Thank You for Your Precious Comments !!"

Miraculous art thou....

2007-02-08T16:58:00.001+05:30

Blessed am I…

Blessed under Heaven,
Is the one who grows under the warm Sunshine of your Love..
You.. Are the Sweetest Melody of my life..

And how madly Do I Desire to listen to the sweet rhythms of life through your Voice….
Every Morning when I open my eyes,

It is Only you that I wish to see first…
How fervently do I desire to be with you all the time..

Yes, I do Miss You …
My eyes have Tears for You…
And my life seems to have Time and Spaces for you…
But what unspoilt tears it brings to me…
When I am confronted with the Harsh reality of Life,
That I still do not have You beside me…

Ey sleepy Boy,

Wake up…

See how beautiful the day is….

Wash your gentle youth with the warm uxorious sunshine…
And do you listen to the soft mystical songs of nature…

I have a blank reason that is strong enough to explain

The causes That back My Tears

Tears That So often line up My eyes.

An aching heart,

You know, my Love,is so Painful.

How often do I wish you were here …
To hold me tight for long enough..
So my tears find their sole Refuge..
So my morons find their way to seep through your mighty heart..

Wish I too had my Lover beside me…
To steal me so far..

Far Away from my tears…

My audacious desires,
How so much seek me to get myself wrapped up,

In the arms of my lover…
Smell his sweet embrace…

While I caress his soul with my restless tears…
And Together we weave some Happy dreams.
As I raptly taste your sweet Smile…
I count my stars….and say..
How blessed am I to have you with me my Love…

Sweet Things :)

2006-12-18T11:03:00.001+05:30

Sweet Things of Life!

Where do I find the sweet things of life??
In the comforting words of a friend,
In the holy sermon of the reverend!
In the sweet embrace of my lover,

In the heartwarming smiles from my baby sister.

In the incredible faith of my teacher.
And in the soft whispers frm the Nature,
And in the pure gentle blessed love of my parents.

Summer is here!

2006-12-18T10:42:00.001+05:30

Indian Summer

Its 43! Well, I saw it at my cousin’s T.V a few days ago and I think it must have been the same Today. Or even more than that??

You roll, rush, travel and survive under the sun…staying outdoors all day! You do not realize or may be the work pressure have been too high to keep you off from raising an eyebrow at the Sun!! You reach home, spare a moment with your T.V at the special news and with a glassful of lemonade in your left hand and suddenly you are informed about the highest recorded temperatures of your city day! You read the figures and you feel even hotter than that during the whole of the noon, you are feeling sweaty now, wiping the moisture off from your skin….ah cannot believe?? You have been surviving under that 50 degree and 72 humidity!

Well, let me describe what it is like and how is it so different from the others.
The fields are all bare, not a pinch of green. Manures heaped up here and there. Normal women dress up with body all covered up, to preserve their soft tender skin from the hot pinching wind!
The hills are all bare too wrapped up with thorny bushes all around. Cattle start out early in the mornings and return with the same width. They come the earliest and keep moving late, hoping definitely to find something to munch on….dried up living beings wander every where in search of moisture, cool shade!

It is not the hot sun every time but rather I would say the severe lack of vegetation, leafless branches blew nothing but hot skin toasting wind. At this very moment its quite natural if the thought of global warming has been tickling your provocative minds. No matter development has been ensuring a more secure life with abundant privileges and handy opportunities! But may be while we take off this mask we come across this grim reality. An environment is the sustainable basis of any life form. And it is just a personal belief; all life must ensure balance in the ecosystem.For that’s how we may secure a not only developed but also very well coordinated happy biosphere!